Obsessed????

Okay, all I can think about is this challenge. How many calories will this burn, how many calories are in that food, what am I going to eat next and how do I balance the calories? I'll be thinking about stuff constantly. Then, out of no where, blurt out some random answer to what ever I was thinking about, or something I have learned in this journey. Whoever is around me at the time probably thinks I am a nutcase. My mom was quizzing me today at lunch. How many calories are in that? Does it meet your requirements? What if you had this? I could answer all of them. I didn't even have my cheat sheet!!! I think it is sinking in. Something has crept into this thick skull of mine. Yes!!!!!

I have to say, I am not seeing the numbers. But, I feel great. I have been sore every day since Monday.(Thanks Mike!) Today is not so bad. I only did cardio. I have learned to sweat, and like it. Okay, I don't really "like" it, but I know I'm working hard. That I like. I have to remind myself that I didn't get fat overnight, so why would it just melt away overnight. Patience is not my thing, I have to admit. That is another struggle I have had with my weight. I would do some thing, be it diet or exercise and if I didn't see results in a week, I would give up. This is week two and I'm still here!!!!

Yesterday was a bad day for me. I can't explain what exactly the problem was, but I was in a funk. I woke up today, and praise God, it was a new day!!!! I was focused during my workout. I did better than I thought I would. Yesterday was a struggle. I wanted to do more but I have a blister on my pinkie toe. It is very painful. In trying to avoid the pain in my toe, it felt like I was making another blister on the ball of my foot. I cannot get another blister. I want to be able to fully participate in our group workout this weekend. I have tomorrow off to recouperate. Yea!

Even though the numbers are not there. I am noticing some changes. I can feel the muscles in my biceps WITHOUT flexing. I am starting to see some definition in my legs. I think I am going to go with the saying "muscle weighs more than fat".

Please keep me in your prayers this weekend. We are going to a birthday party and I know the cake will be exquisite. If you haven't tried a cake from "the cake guy", let me tell you, you haven't had cake! It will take more will power than I can possibly have on my own to refrain from tasting "the cake". They are really beautiful, too. You can see some pictures of his creations at http://www.thecakeguy.net/.

"I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."