Obsessed????

Okay, all I can think about is this challenge. How many calories will this burn, how many calories are in that food, what am I going to eat next and how do I balance the calories? I'll be thinking about stuff constantly. Then, out of no where, blurt out some random answer to what ever I was thinking about, or something I have learned in this journey. Whoever is around me at the time probably thinks I am a nutcase. My mom was quizzing me today at lunch. How many calories are in that? Does it meet your requirements? What if you had this? I could answer all of them. I didn't even have my cheat sheet!!! I think it is sinking in. Something has crept into this thick skull of mine. Yes!!!!!

I have to say, I am not seeing the numbers. But, I feel great. I have been sore every day since Monday.(Thanks Mike!) Today is not so bad. I only did cardio. I have learned to sweat, and like it. Okay, I don't really "like" it, but I know I'm working hard. That I like. I have to remind myself that I didn't get fat overnight, so why would it just melt away overnight. Patience is not my thing, I have to admit. That is another struggle I have had with my weight. I would do some thing, be it diet or exercise and if I didn't see results in a week, I would give up. This is week two and I'm still here!!!!

Yesterday was a bad day for me. I can't explain what exactly the problem was, but I was in a funk. I woke up today, and praise God, it was a new day!!!! I was focused during my workout. I did better than I thought I would. Yesterday was a struggle. I wanted to do more but I have a blister on my pinkie toe. It is very painful. In trying to avoid the pain in my toe, it felt like I was making another blister on the ball of my foot. I cannot get another blister. I want to be able to fully participate in our group workout this weekend. I have tomorrow off to recouperate. Yea!

Even though the numbers are not there. I am noticing some changes. I can feel the muscles in my biceps WITHOUT flexing. I am starting to see some definition in my legs. I think I am going to go with the saying "muscle weighs more than fat".

Please keep me in your prayers this weekend. We are going to a birthday party and I know the cake will be exquisite. If you haven't tried a cake from "the cake guy", let me tell you, you haven't had cake! It will take more will power than I can possibly have on my own to refrain from tasting "the cake". They are really beautiful, too. You can see some pictures of his creations at http://www.thecakeguy.net/.

"I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me."

Still going

Saturday was our group training day. Let me tell you I don't even think I pushed that hard during childbirth. It felt like we were on The Biggest Loser! During the gruelling workout I thought, what did I get my self into. Then I realized, that's what I signed up for. Did I think it was going to be a cake walk? If it was easy I wouldn't be here. I would already be in shape and fit. We all would. But, I've learned that it does take hard work and dedication. I am shocked that I made it through without passing out. That hour felt like 2 or 3. It was as if time stood still. I guess that saying is true...Time flies while you are having fun. There was no fun involved. I didn't appreciate our session at the time. But, I sure did afterwards. Even the next day, and the day after that! I was a little disappointed when we weighed in. But, it just makes me want to work that much harder this week.

Monday was another set of exercises to add to my weekly routine. I do have to say they felt pretty good. I have been sore since Saturday's workout. I'm not complaining though. It's definitely a good sore. So far I'm doing good with my motivation to get to the gym. I want to see a bigger number next time we weigh. I know I still need to do more though.


The food part is almost as hard as the workouts. Who knew it would be hard to eat 1500 calories in a day? I didn't have a problem with it before. I was eating less food before, but it was very high in calories. Now, I am having a hard time filling my calories for a given meal. Healthy food doesn't have much calories. Then you have to worry about the balance of your calories, fat, protein, and carbs. It is getting a little easier. Only I need to eat 1800 calories now. I don't know how I'm going to do it, but I will find a way. The 26th is getting here quick. I am going to give it everything I got!